Day 3 without her...She is now out of her cell but I haven't yet seen her. She called me as soon as she got home...we talked for about a half an hour. It was such a relief to hear she is ok. I can no longer live with her though. I found an apartment yesterday.

My apt is in Nishi-Azabu. It is a nice area of Tokyo, not too far from work. I like it a lot. I packed up all my things last night into boxes. She called me coincidentally right after I was done. I will move in today. Jim, a friend of mine here in Tokyo, has let me stay with him the last two nights. That was really cool of him. Thank god, if not I woulda been sleepin on the streets sunday night, and then my office last night. My office keycard is in my jacket that Miho has. I need to get them both.

I called the movers and today at 4pm they will be at my old apartment. This is really hard for me. I almost cried last night while I was packing up my things. I have never gone more than a few hours without seeing her since I moved here. Now it has been a few days. It will probably be a few more. When I first met her I was here on vacation. When I went back to NYC for the month before I moved back here We called eachother a few times a week and emailed eachother atleast once a day. That was the longest I ever went without hearing her voice or reading an email. I will so badly miss coming home to her. Instead, I will now come home to an empty apartment. That sucks. Sleeping alone in bed will be so lonely.

We have not broken up, we are still together. We are not going to break up. I just have to endure going out with a girl who lives with her parents again. I have not had to deal with that since I was in High School. I wasn't very good at it then, I probably will not be very good at it now either.

I paid for two plane tickets back to NYC for christmas. One for Myself, and one for Miho. She now does not think she will be allowed to go...I'll be damned if I go back without her. She will be in NY for christmas...not Japan. I am willing to make a bet with anyone who thinks otherwise. I have to be patient but I can do it. It will take time though.

Oz will help me move tonight...he is a good friend.

All of htis is happening for one reason....Miho got unimaginably drunk and kicked in the reinforced glass security door to our apartment building...unless you have lived in Japan they are hard to describe, all you nihonjin and gaijin know what they are....unreal. I was sooo close to getting everything perfect....now this, back to square one. I had just reached the top of the mountain...an avalanche buried me and I now have to dig my way out