Yahoo! Why? Why? do people do things like this? Only in NY people.

In other news, goldewn week hasbeen anything but. It has been so shitty this week weather wise that the wind was at typhoon force yesterday. It blew down a one ton kite flying at a festival south of Tokyo...ONE TON!! My god! The wind yesterday was wuite fierce. It blew rice fields in Chiba so far apart it looked like an Iraqi sandstorm. NO JOKE. Good thing it did not rain too much or else the rain would have been going upside-down almost...

So I go home last night to find the playstation my friend gave me to use while I am staying with him this month is gone. I find it under his girlfriend's side of the bed. So I take it back with all the games and hook it back up so Miho and I can play the tennis game she now kicks my ass is all the time...where's Madden 2004?? I will skool her haha. Anyway, right as I am about to go to sleep the bitch gf of my friend knocks on my door and asks where the playstation is...I say "Why do you want to play it?" She says "No, but it's mine." So I say I will give it to her in the morning and that seems to please her. I cannot believe she had the nerve to go through all of my things while I wasn't there and take the PSX!!! I did go through her stuff to find it, but only cuz she took what is rightly mine to begin with. Craig gave it to me! She never uses it...she just wants it to spite me. No one likes her anyway...she lives with him for free, pays for nothing. I pay half craig's rent and she bosses me around like she owns the place saying I am not allowed to have my girlfriend over and this and that...all this from a former stripper! Take your clothes off honey, it's all your good at...he has told you to move out 6 times already! Take the hint you muppet!

looking at my hit counter stats I can see someone working at mcgraw hill was hard at work haha...good on ya bro...reading my ranting and raving will make you feel better about yourself :)

So far no one in my family has read my melt down...will keep you all up to date

Just a quick correction to my family rant...there are people in my family who this is not directed at. These people who I never really talk to or see that often, it is not about you. In fact, you are probably the nicest people in my family. I got to know some of you before I moved to Japan and really enjoyed the time we spent. Others who I saw alot who are good people as well (hint *they have an apt on the upper east side and another group of you live in fort lee*hint hint*), you are without a doubt my favorite people in the family. Coincidentally you are in the same immediate family. I wish all the people on both sides of my family were like you. The people who it is directed at know who they are...

This is definitely not directed at my parents. No matter what I have done they have in some way supported me. The way they say it, as long as I am happy that's all that matters. They might not like me living here, but atleast they support it because I am successful.

The rest of my family still refers to me as a flake, a screw up, etc. anything you can think of to degrade me...almost all of it comes from my mother's side of the family, not naming names or pointing fingers...but y'all know how you are. Haters...why can't you just be happy that I am happy? Living here is something I want to do, I have struggled mightily to get myself where I am today. I ate nothing but plain rice for weeks at a time last summer...you all have no clue! I am here for the long haul, accept it or not I am still here.

As much as I love NY I could not live there again anytime soon. Tokyo is my home. I doubt that I can even function well in western society anymore to be honest with you...I have worked soo damn hard to assimilate myself into japanese society that NY looked totally different when I went back for xmas...There were times I got scared of being mugged, beat up, etc that I would've walked right through saying hi to the guy I was afraid of back in the day because back then I wasn't afraid. Now I am.

I hate that feeling you get in your gut walking through big american cities because you think something might happen or will happen. I was mugged twice in my time living on my own in Queens...one time I got the shit kicked outta me. Didn't visit the family upstate for a month cuz I didn't want them to know. Other time I beat the shit out the guy with my cell phone, split his eye socket in half...why do you think the display on my phone broke dad?? I was also mugged upstate in Utica once...my family thought I made it up...still have the scar on my head from where I was pistol whipped...

All my life I have been told that all I do is lie and that I am full of shit. Maybe it's the other way around. I am not the bad person you people tried to make me think I was. Again, look at yourselves in the mirror and ask yourself where you were when you were 22...bet I am lightyears ahead of you back then...forget that, I know I am. I remember you all when you were 22...I make more salary in a week then you did in a month...prorated for inflation over the last 10-20 yrs. I know that money isn't everything, but since you all have so much of it and can't seem to spare a single fucking nickel that's the only way I can relate to you.

So to my family, if you read the rant below and take it personally you probably should. If it does not sound like you dthen it probably isn't and you shouldn't be mad at me..if anyone is mad at me there is a link to email me and I will even call you if you want...heaven forbid anyone spends a dime to call me in Japan. I call you all once a week. You can take it up with me in any medium you wish...It isn't going to be a shouting match unless you make it one...You always made it very clear how you felt about me and I never opened my mouth till now...flake my ass.